July 10, 2010

I'm almost finished with the current book I've been reading, "The Call" by Rick Joyner. It's the second in a series. It's been really good. They are a series of visions and prophetic experiences that he had and recorded. It has definitely spurred me on to want to go deeper in my relationship with God. Not only this book, but several I've read lately, and the Bible study I've been doing on my own. Some days I feel like I can't get enough. Then other days seem to go by and I didn't even pick anything up. Why is that? I really seem to be relating with the Apostle Paul....doing what I don't want to do and not doing what I want to do. I so much want to be able to live in the "real" world and not just operate in this temporary setting with all it's limits. But then, when I do feel like I'm beginning to access that realm....I feel like I look like a fruitcake to everyone around me. Oh well. I think I'd rather be seen as flaky, or way out there, than to miss out on what God has available for me. I read something in that book today about our "armor." In this picture he was painting...the armor that was being worn was "made to fit." I know whenever I've thought about putting on my armor as it says to do in Ephesians 6....I get the picture of what knights wore...seems kinda big and bulky. Not convenient. But it shouldn't have to be like that. It should be a natural fit to us. I should be able to be graceful and maneuver in my armor without ever having to take it off. Just something else for me to think about.

July 8, 2010

Thursdays are always fun for me. I made a new friend last fall. She knocked on my door and wanted to talk to me about God. So we did. And she came back the next week, and the next. So I started inviting her in. Her name is Pam and it's been an interesting journey. You probably have guessed by now....she's a Jehovah's Witness. There have been others who have knocked on my door over the years. I always steered them away. Told them I believed and attended church and I didn't need to do a Bible study with them. But, this time was different. I felt God encouraging me to do this. I wouldn't suggest that to just anyone. You really need to be grounded in your faith...they can be very persuasive. At first I wasn't so sure I should have taken on this task. But now I can truly say I look forward to our time together every week. It was either the first or second week that she brought a scripture out to me that I had never looked at closely before. Proverbs 2:4..."If thou seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid treasures;" (KJV) Their translation says..."if you keep seeking for it as for silver, and as for hid treasures you keep searching for it,"....I now LOVE this scripture. It's become one of my favorites. I enjoy reading many different translations of the Bible...but some don't do this verse justice. She asked me why did this scripture refer to wisdom as silver, and not gold? You see, gold doesn't take much work to find....when it's there...you just find it by panning for it. Silver is another issue. You have to dig down deep to find silver. Much work involved. Needless to say...I've been doing a lot of digging over the last several months. I have so enjoyed getting into God's Word and finding answers. There are some issues I'm still digging into that I haven't come to a conclusion yet. Other answers are very cut and dry. The one thing I do know, I have built a friendship with Pam. I would definitely miss her if she didn't come by anymore. We don't agree on many doctrinal issues. But, we are both after the truth. And I can truly see how much she loves God. I don't know where this is going to go in the future. I pray that we can remain friends no matter what happens. And, of course, I'm hoping God will use my little light to shine some new truth into her life.

July 7, 2010

Okay, I finally did it. I've been thinking about doing this for awhile now. I remember when I was a little girl I wanted to be an "author and illustrator." Funny, huh? I've always felt like I wanted to write...but always thought that someday in the future God would line up all the thoughts in my head and I'd write a book or something. The Lord knows I've had an interesting life. But now that I'm 40 I wonder how long it will be til all those thoughts line up and God tells me what to write about. Decided it isn't gonna work the way I thought it might. I just need to start writing. About what? Who knows? I guess just the day to day stuff of what I've learned being a mom, and wife, and all the little things that God shows me daily. God has never failed me, that's for sure. 25 years ago I never would have thought my life would be what it is. We didn't always choose the right path, or the easy way, but we've made it. Where did we make it? To today...and then tomorrow. Ha ha! I've been married to Glen more than 21 years. Wow! And we've raised 3 boys who are absolutely amazing. I couldn't ask God for better children. And I'm grasping a little more every day just how much Jesus loves me! I wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for Him. I just want to live life everyday so those around me can see Him in some way or another.